My weekend was not an all out bore (though still VERY boring compared to my last couple months in London, which I still seem to be desparately hanging onto) so I'll write about it. And maybe give an overall update on what's going on. If I feel like it.

Actually went out on Friday. Was just gonna stay in, like always, after going for my caffeine dose at the Starbucks. But ended up going out to good ol' Halo with Aynz and friends. I used to go to Halo like every week because it is the so-called "mod- night" playing indie and new wave and brit rock and 80's dance hits and that stuff. My party music scene, I guess you might say. Plus the other folks that go there are pretty fashionable and rad, not like other lame places in Edmonton. The music there hadn't really evolved that much though. Not like in London, where they are so far ahead of the game that it's easier for me to be at least with the game. But I got to have one of my old favourite drinks, the Soho martini. Did it remind me of Nathan? Well, yeah, sure, but of course it would. I have yet to figure out that boy and it's a little tiring, so I'm leaving it for the time being.

I did not have to work on Saturday until 1:45pm but didn't wake up until like quarter after 1. Made it to work on time though but was pretty tired. I'm actually enjoying the Starbucks. It's sad, but true.

Did not do anything Saturday night, save for watch Star Wars: Epdisode III: Revenge of the Sith because I had to open on Sunday morning at Starbucks. Had to be at the shop by 6:30am. I was there on time, that's just bloody early. The shift went pretty quickly but the woman that was there to help us (shift supervisor from other store) was such a flake that the drink orders were piling up when it was busy so drinks were being made slowly. I was on bar with a huge amount of orders to be filled when I was supposed to be off and didn't realize the time. When I did realize the time I felt bad for leaving the drinks cuz there was only the other dude actually working (flake lady was on the sales floor talking to people and the other girl was sitting with her boyfriend). The other dude was doing the till stuff so I couldn't really just leave until someone came to take over. Then I remembered I had to cash out so I was pretty late in leaving. Just gets stressful when other people don't help out and do their jobs.

Went to the Wolfmother show. They were a pretty good live show, nothing overly special or unique about the show itself though, really. But they are a pretty unique band and it was a good 18+ crowd so I enjoyed it. I would have liked to hear Andrew Stockdale, the frontman I'm pretty sure, talk some more. He did speak about the flamingos in West Edmonton Mall, that was cool. Just so I could be reminded of the good ol' Aussie accent. Haha, it was funny at the show these two dudes kinda moved into our space and separated me from Robin and Gina and then we were talking over them loudly so that they'd clue in and since they were nice, they did clue in and moved back. And then I realized that one of them was Tyler, a dude I used to work with at Superstore. That was great.




Life in general has been fairly mundane. I'm working at Starbucks and a pet store. I don 't need a degree to work at the pet store, but here I am having one. I'm not really suited to working in retail/customer driven environments so that part is a little tough for me, since I know this and yet work there anyway. It's really a for the time being thing, but I don't know what I want to do with my life so I'm confused and lost. I do get to feed reptiles though. And touch snakes and stuff like that. But really, it's a grade 12 job. What I'm thinking about now is look into more courses and grad options, maybe some specific pre-vet things, or maybe even technologist stuff at NAIT. Gotta get the life in order, I guess, and stop holding onto the good fun care free times in London.

All that or get my British passport and live in a hostel (hating everyone, but a very few select individuals with whom I party with) forever. The boys were better over there.

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feeling odd at home. a bit. don't wanna elaborate now.

Yes, here it is!! The third tattoo, and this one by the amazing Kamil at Evil from the Needle in London.

 And wow, that was a lot more exhausting than what it should've been so that is all for now folks.

Cam and I have been flyer whores lately. We go and collect them and see what sounds good and what we might like and check out new clubs. We've also been making some friends too!! Haha, mostly cute boys at that! Friday we went to St. Moritz Club and as we were just chilling out sitting down I noticed a hot boy dancing like a spazz and I was smiling at him. Then a little bit later he rushed over and collapsed at my feet and told me he was the dj and he would play anything that I wanted to hear because he wanted to see me dance. And he kissed me on the cheek (and it was pretty much the best cheek kiss ever). So yeah, I hung out at his booth requesting songs and spazzing harcore to them. Later on we were hanging out at a table and he came over and kissed me full on... and then I melted. Mmmm, yes, best friday the 13th ever. We think he might've been on e though, and he kept trying to take off his clothes... think Peter from Family Guy when he goes on e... LOL. I'll try and see him again.

i'm back in the italy now. it's great, save for the rude people, but what are you going to do? mon and i have been to venice, florence, pisa, assisi, naples, sorrento, pompeii and now we are in rome. i really enjoyed venice, assisi, pompeii and rome the best i think. but it's been a great tour thus far and we only have a couple more days left!! it's all been great, but stupid naples seemed to make a bad impression of itself with it's rail strike and its pricey little hotel room and it's very hard to find coast. food has been so yummy and i told mon that i married cappuncino. sooooooo good!

i just have to watch the money situation. i've got two weeks in london when i get back and am getting a tattoo done and then i'm off to greece for a good week and a couple days. and still have to book a ticket home. so that's going to take some budgeting and/or parents help!

Yes, traveling definitely makes me very happy. And when I'm in a beautiful place enjoying all the sights and new experiences I cannot imagine being at home and doing what I've done all my life (which was I guess not all that much, just going to school and getting drunk at weekends). I got to take a couple days off work recently to go to Venice and Florence for Tower's birthday. Such a great time. I just felt elated the whole time, from the moment I stepped off the plane and earned a new stamp in the passport. Finally getting a chance to do what I was meant to do by coming over here.  My time in London is not nothing, don't get me wrong, but the past little while it seems to have become somehow stagnant for me and I'm really stressed and aggravated by my job, and the shift is such that I often don't get to hang out with people in the evenings. Just the boys that make fun of me, calling me emo and that. I guess it is some kind of attention and even though I don't really command attention it's okay to get attention. Even if it is negative? I guess.

I think I want more tattoos. Going to see if Cara's artist can give me a seahorse. I think he might do a really cool dark colour skeme realistic looking seahorse. I 've seen some pix of similar ones and they're awesome. Going to try and get that done when Mon comes and she's going to get hers all coloured in. I'd also like to have steve do another birdie near the one he already did for me. It could be like a 1/8th sleeve. I think it would look really cute to have a second bird in the same style flying up to meet my original. Which I lean towards naming Herbert. Whatevs.

Just got a picture CD from home. Towers mom brought it for me. It's so good to finally see these pictures, but I look kinda crabby in most of them... oh well. The memories are there!

There are a ton more and I'll have to get them uploaded into the photobucket when I get a chance.


EDIT: okay so hopefully the pics are fixed now, and I'm not putting them in photobucket tonight, cuz i'm too lazy and it takes too damn long.

all of a sudden a little meltdown hit me about going home. i said something to someone about not having friends when i come home and he said to me "well you did fuck off and go to london for a year". guess it really did sink in that it might not be a friendly situation when i get back home. i already feel alienated enough over here. i hate feeling so unsure! i really want to go home cuz i miss my family so so much, but at the same time there doesn't seem to be too much at home for me.

cara is gone to travel around the europe. we had a great weekend full of the booze to send her off well. friday work drinks were interesting and kinda awkward and i don't care if i never go back for work drinks. after that cara and i went with cam to club 333 and saw an awesome band called Humanzi from ireland. saturday we went to the temple walkabout dressed as 80's cliche rockers. sunday we went to the church for some day time boozing. funny stories go with all these events but i'm off work now and also a little bit down. *emo*

dienacht and I went to get our Rigour Mortoise Tortoise tattoos on Saturday. We had been kinda jokingly planning this for a little while, and cuz we're crazy we went ahead and did it. It all came about when we were thinking of our band name and came up with a swanky tortoise in a top hat with a monicle, but that he should be called a rigor mortis tortoise, just cuz it rhymes and it's cool. So Cara went around graffiti-ing random public places (litke the Astoria and the Camden public toilets) with our band name and a skull and cross bones symbol. But whenever we're drunk I tell her how we need to get our tortoise tattooed on ourselves. And we actually carried it out and really, I couldn't be happier.

Yeah so it was a super great weekend (even though I still had to work both Saturday and Sunday), but I still got to go and see 7 seconds of love perform in Battersea Park. It was great. We were oh so drunk and partied oh so hard. Mostly me and Cara, Tower and Emma gave a good effort and Byron, Adri, and Yolande just sat off to the side and probably just made fun of us. 

Okay so had a pretty good weekend past. On Friday went with Cara and Nao and Adri and Byron and Emma to a psychobilly/rockabilly club. It was really funny cuz I was really really drunk and then I took some herbal pep speed pill that Nao gave me and I am apparently very susceptible to the pills so I was just sitting in one place wigging out and feeling like I'd been sitting in the place for hours and hours when it had only been minutes. So Nao and the others left early cuz they couldn't handle it and Cara and I sat there like stoned lumps but had so much fun doing so. I was making very random jokes and Cara was just laughing at me. I had never been so apart from a group and feeling like an outsider and yet having a blast doing it.


Saturday was the awesome CANADA DAY. I was extremely hung over and my head hurt so so much. I couldn't move from bed until well after 1pm. Tower and Cara and I headed to the Maple Leaf to celebrate in Canadian style. Too bad I couldn't really move. After that Tower and I jetted off to her workmates house. I was drinking all day and only was getting rowdy around home time, which was about 11pm so we could catch the last train. On the way home we bumped into Waz and Nathan and a bunch of the Frenchies. I had a good yell at Nathan for his spilling out cupboard and his stealing of my bracelet.  Tower and I decided on a whim to go with them out to party in Fulham. Had to go back to the hostel for some reason so Nathan and them went off without us and Waz stayed to wait for us. We lost contact of nathan and them and ended up just wandering around with Waz. Some nice random photos. Including numerous ones of me being a mySpace kid. And cuz I want to assault you all here is my